religion

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about religion. While thinking about religion, I've been consciously deciding NOT to think of religion, which leads only to myself fighting myself over what I deem important enough to deliberate over. Religion has usually been on the fence, and the past year I've found myself pushing it off more and more. The truth is, I don't want to begin to cover anything spiritual. To begin to think about existentialism and a higher power and all that jazz, it starts an avalanche of thoughts that I've unconsciously not wanted to deal with. Religion is hard. It's hard to think about, it's hard to pick a team, and it's hard to commit. It's really really REALLY hard to commit.

After introducing more mythology to my library, I've gotten to thinking that all religion is equally wrong. Or all religion is equally right. Today was my younger brother's First Holy Communion. I remember mine, but in actuality all I remember is the party afterwards. I don't know exactly what that says, but it says something.

I'm not sure where I am on the religion spectrum. Probably somewhere between agnostic and atheist, but I'm not an atheist at all. It's more like I believe in almost everything equally. Maybe it's only that I believe in whatever is presented to me at that moment. I'm an "in the moment" sort of believer; there's no long-term commitment in store for me when it comes to spirituality. The only thing I'm really sure of is that I believe in reincarnation.

I'm not sure what the point of this blog is. But I'm sure that there's some sort of point, hidden under all my stupid ramblings.